Happy First Birthday, My Darling.

There’s something beautiful about celebrating the birth of my precious son on the same day as celebrating the resurrection of the Son of God. What a joyous day Easter is, and even more so this year for our family! Today, we will celebrate the beautiful gift God gave us of His Son and of ours. Last year on this day, the first breath taken by our baby boy literally took ours away. It’s a day I will never forget and will cherish for the rest of my life.0 months

I can’t begin to tell you how incredibly fast the last year has gone for us. Everyone has always said how quickly their children grew up, but I honestly wasn’t prepared for how true that really is. He has grown up so quickly into such a little man! Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally, he has grown leaps and bounds and I thank God every day for that.

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I have experienced more joy and love in the last three hundred and sixty-five days than I have in all the days of my life combined. When I say joy, I mean happiness so far beyond measure. When I say love, I can’t even pretend to have the words to describe how in love with him I am. He brings so much laughter and excitement to our lives and brightens every single day. It is seriously impossible to be in a grumpy mood around him, even on our worst days, he manages to make them better. When I think back to what life was like before we had him, I can’t imagine ever not having his sweet laughter and kisses to wake up to every day.

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J is everything I could have hoped for and more. He is such a bright light in this world. I am literally in awe of him every, single day. I have been blessed beyond measure to spend the last year watching him grow from a sweet, tiny little angel baby to an adorable, funny, and smart little boy. He has so many layers, I am so impressed with how deep his emotions lie. I have no doubt that he will be a man of passion and compassion, of wit and of wisdom. I truly feel sometimes like he is the mini-me of Brendan, and I couldn’t be happier about it. I can only hope and pray that J will someday become the kind of man his Dad is.

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I am so looking forward to spending the coming year wondering how I could have thought that it couldn’t get any better than the last. I’m excited for  J to take his first steps, speak his first sentence, and continue exploring the world around him. I anticipate the pride and the heart ache as he gets older and becomes more independent. I dread the times he will hurt, whether physically or emotionally. I’m eager to watch his imagination grow and run wild.

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I pray that we’re making the right choices for him and how we’re raising him. I pray for his heart and for his mind, and that he will grow to be a man who loves Jesus and shares Him with others. I pray for his future wife and that God will keep her heart pure and good.

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I pray, and I pray, and I pray…and I thank God that last year, on this day, He blessed me with the most amazing gift I could ever have imagined.

Happy first birthday, my darling. You are now, and will always be, the absolute light of my life

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Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. – 1 Peter 1:3

Oh Christmas Tree!


I’ve never been more excited to get a Christmas tree and get into holiday spirit as much as I am this year. There’s something about making memories and starting new traditions with our little family that adds so much magic and festivity to it all! I’m so excited to see baby J get more and more excited about Christmas as every year passes and hope to instill the anticipation and excitement that our parents did in us. I’m so blessed to have married a man who might even love Christmas more than I do, so holidays are so much fun around the Dekker house!


We ran right out to a tree lot as soon as December hit and got a beautiful noble fir-tree. Not too small and not too big for our quaint little apartment, this tree is the perfect size for our perfect little family. We lit a couple of holiday candles, put on some Christmas tunes, poured some hot chocolate and got to decorating!



As we added each ornament to the tree, it melted my heart to listen to Brendan tell the beautiful story of when Jesus was born to our precious little son. Although he may not understand yet, I know he can feel the love and joy as the story is told.


I hope to stay focused on the true meaning of Christmas this and every year, even throughout the hustle and bustle and sometimes even stress of the holidays, I want to remember all that we have to be thankful for and to not forget that, although it’s so much fun to wrap gifts for our precious baby boy, the greatest gift of all is Jesus and his abundant mercy and grace.


And behold, an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. Then the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be the sign to you: You will find a Babe wrapped in swaddling cloths, lying in a manger.” And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying: “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, goodwill toward men!” – Luke 2:9-14